Sometimes speaking into the void is all you can do
It’s always the thing that reminds you of yourself that you hate in someone else.
Two times in my life I have said to someone ‘we should not be friends anymore,’ and to be honest, I thought it was a logical thing to say at the time. I guess I thought you could break up with friends just as you would a lover. If you already know that the friendship is going to fade away through distance and time, why not set the expectation and mutually agree not to pretend or bother?
I don’t claim to understand friendship, nor do I claim to have ever been a real friend to anyone. At best I can say that there are people in my life with whom I can always pick up where we left off, no questions asked, no apologies necessary. And beyond that, there are people I see and chat to every day. Is any of that friendship? I have no idea.
Yesterday Nathon said he didn’t think we should be friends anymore. And because it reminds me of me, I hate him for saying it. Whether or not it’s logical; and even if he’s just kidding, testing me, or amusing himself is irrelevant now.
Sometimes lovers get back together after they break up. They say love can cover a multitude of sins. But what about friendship, can it ever recover?
Forgiveness, maybe; but reconciliation, I don’t know.
Two times in my life I have said to someone ‘we should not be friends anymore,’ and to be honest, I thought it was a logical thing to say at the time. I guess I thought you could break up with friends just as you would a lover. If you already know that the friendship is going to fade away through distance and time, why not set the expectation and mutually agree not to pretend or bother?
I don’t claim to understand friendship, nor do I claim to have ever been a real friend to anyone. At best I can say that there are people in my life with whom I can always pick up where we left off, no questions asked, no apologies necessary. And beyond that, there are people I see and chat to every day. Is any of that friendship? I have no idea.
Yesterday Nathon said he didn’t think we should be friends anymore. And because it reminds me of me, I hate him for saying it. Whether or not it’s logical; and even if he’s just kidding, testing me, or amusing himself is irrelevant now.
Sometimes lovers get back together after they break up. They say love can cover a multitude of sins. But what about friendship, can it ever recover?
Forgiveness, maybe; but reconciliation, I don’t know.
posted by Amy at
5:39 PM
1 Comments:
a new post in 2 years... some things are worth the wait... but this? come on Amy you can do better ;)
Only joking.
I think you can become friends again, but I agree with you it is much harder for some reason to change from being a friend to not being a friend (and vice-versa) than with a lover or a sibling for example.
My theory is it is easier to swap your feelings for their exact opposite. For example, if you adore someone you can easily start hating them. And if you hate someone you can easily start loving them. But it is hard to be neutral towards someone you love or hate and it is difficult to hate someone you never met. Friendship is just between the two...
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